|The Greenway, Wednesday night, right before it rained.|
2. I never knew I needed lip polish until I impulse purchased some one day when I was feeling sorry for myself and needed a treat. The world is not in the best place right now, so I guess I shouldn't say I "need" lip polish, but boy is it a cheap and quick way to feel prettier and more fancy than you were three minutes ago. I am in love with this French Girl Organics one from Follain. It gets rid of any sort of chapped lip-ness pretty much immediately and makes your lips look fresh and pink and awesome. You barely need lipstick at all after this. Go get some, you deserve it.
3. On Tuesday night I made a new friend. A girl around my age who lives in my neighborhood. We exchanged numbers, said we'd meet for coffee. Yesterday I was having breakfast at The Thinking Cup and this new friend appeared at my table. We chatted for a few. I told her I'd just come from a yoga class and was headed out for a longish day of work and teaching, hence my enormous bag. She said she was meeting another friend for breakfast. We made plans to meet up for coffee early next week. Fine. As she walked away, I noticed myself thinking, "Well thank goodness. I actually look like a person who takes yoga in the morning and who reads library books and brushes her hair and drinks good coffee and gets up early and leads a busy life and is nice to people when she runs into them in public. Phew! I'm so relieved she saw this person and not me." I frequently find my brain doing this. I did get up early and go to yoga. I was reading a library book. I did brush my hair. I was drinking good coffee. I did all of those things. I was the person sitting there. So....? Yeah. I struggle to see myself as I actually am and believe it and have confidence in it. Prom Date introduced me to one of his friends a few months ago. I immediately liked her and thought she was smart and stylish and totally on-the-ball. She referred to this as a "leftover thought process." I think the professionals call it Imposter Syndrome. For YEARS I was in and out of really unhealthy relationships and friendships, in and out of jobs, drinking too much, spending too much; I wasn't in a good place. I wasn't getting up early, sometimes I wasn't getting up at all. I've moved on from that phase, but my self-perception and confidence is lagging behind. Do any of you ever feel this way?
4. Onto happier things. The new Queer Eye on Netflix. I'd heard people talking about it and finally gave it a shot and OH MY GOODNESS it is good. You WILL laugh, you WILL cry. You'll cry in a joyful, hooray-for-transformation/acceptance/love way, not in a This Is Us way. This show just makes you feel good. I was puttering around my apartment earlier this morning and I found myself smiling just thinking about the episodes I watched last night. Gas up your Netflix and watch them all.
5. I'm so thrilled it's a long weekend. Is it me or was this week especially long? Was this really only five days? Oof. I'm excited to eat more tomatoes, finish reading this book, and try on my summer clothes to see what still fits and what doesn't.
Happy Friday, you guys.